Day 122 – tomorrow is race day – 13.1 miles
July 24, 2010
As I prepare for tomorrow’s race, I am filled with anxiety – why am I doing this? what if I can’t do it?What if I fail? It feels impossible – how will I do it? In the midst of this anxiety, comes the remembrance of the pilgrimage that brought me to this point – a pilgrimage of hope – that on this journey I might be transformed so that I might be an instrument of transformation for others. Remembering that this race is in many ways a pilgrimage in mind, body, and spirit, helps to calm my fears. I am racing toward hope – hope that I might be changed into someone who more fully embodies the grace and love of God in Jesus Christ; hope that my body might be transformed more fully into an instrument of God’s grace – to live more incarnationally in the world, honoring the sacredness of not only my body, but the bodies of all beings and the earth; hope that I might learn to be centered in the presence of the God who is closer to me than my own breath, even when all round me is or feels like it is in chaos. To be transformed by the God of the impossible is my goal and so I run toward hope….
From “Jesus Calling” for today July 26th (Sarah Young)– “When you let ME direct your steps, you are set free to enjoy Me and to find what I have prepared for you this day.”
Thank for for all you are doing. I cheer your efforts, your example, and your leadership.